On Hold.

You know when you are on the phone and the person/company on the other end puts you on hold.  You can't really do anything else.  You just have to wait.  Sure you can piddle around, watch TV, whatever, but you can't really do anything very well.  So you wait and listen for the other person to come back on.  Well, that is kind of the way I feel about our life right now.  We are just on hold, tied to the metaphorical phone, waiting to hear something on the other end.  We are piddling around with the everyday things but can't seem to get much accomplished because we are on hold.

Our house is on hold.  It has been on the market since April because we need more room for Jimmy.  It has shown only a handful of times.  So, until we get a bigger house we cannot set up Jimmy's room or even show him where he will live when he comes home. 

Our finances are on hold.  We have been working the Dave Ramsey plan trying to get out of debt, save money, etc.  We have done really well, but again because we are on hold, we feel unsure of how much money we have/can use for different things because of the many adoption costs that pop up. 

Even little things like family pictures are on hold.  A picture of our family is not complete without Jimmy in it.  So, again we wait and hold off.

In my head, I know that God's timing is perfect and He has it all under control.  My human heart feels so heavy and frozen in time.  I am so ready for the waiting to be over.  I am ready for Jimmy to be here, to have him with us, to continue our lives together.  I am ready for all the paperwork and bureaucratic nonsense to be over. 

Please pray that I will find the peace we all need to endure this waiting.  Please pray for us to gather the funds we need for the adoption expenses.  Please pray for Jimmy to come home!